I’m caught in madness. The very need for sanity has seemed to have left me.

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1-16-12

Wanting anything and everything is no longer my desire. I beg for hope. I beg for faith. I beg for something I can believe in. I beg for someone to care. I beg for someone to explain to me what life is, an why exactly I’m here. I believe there is a reason for everything.I believe that sanity is but a crazy man’s dream and more importantly, I believe the world has lost hope of ever becoming at peace.

Indeed, I am at loss for the right words.

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Keep me sane. It shouldn’t be that hard right..? But of course, I’m not really sane at all.

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I am intertwined with you. Don’t let me go…And I shall forever be yours, love.

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Fear is only in the mind.

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NO. I want to be hated. HATED. I only want one person. One mind. ONE. Just..just one. I’m sorry.

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1/27/12

Fuck this. I’m done. I’m about to cross the line. I’m about to lose my mind. Save me from this, before I go too far. Save me before I raise this bar to the top, too high. God, save me and leave me with no pain.

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If all sanity is lost, was there really any to begin with?

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2/06/12

Give me the strength to go on.

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Let me feel your heart beat,

Let me read your soul,

I need to know what to do..I’m lost.

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02/ 26/ 12

…And now you say you’re leaving, and my heart has faded.

I don’t know if I should care,

Or if I shouldn’t.

How could you leave so easily if you really cared?

I ask why, and you can’t answer.

So fine.

Leave me here,

I wont care.

Just remember me, please.

Because I will always remember you.

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The soul is strong,

The mind is stronger,

But your feelings are the weak.

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I’m weak.

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Something? Anything? Maybe or No?

Something I used to care about.

Anything I’d do for you.

Maybe you cared, or no.

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04/15/12

And there you go,

Just bearly disappearing.

Another move towards the dark,

Another move to break my heart.

Maybe it is for the better, my friend.

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Can I just say that he’s so perfect..And everything I was looking for?-Or should I keep that to myself..?

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Leave my sin,

Break me until I bend.

Save me from the dark,

Or leave me with no spark.

Kill me now,

Or make me suffer.

It’s all up to you,

I care not either way.